Oct 24, 2012
Oct 22, 2012
"What does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness and to walk humbly with your God." Micah 6:8
There is nothing about MS that prevents me from trying to live by this. My symptoms do not mean that I need to be rude, unkind or selfish. The fact that the Lord has loved me beyond measure is true, even though my body is failing. He gives me dignity, I do not need a puffed up ego. He treats me with kindness, I should know how to treat others, He cares about the poor and needy and I should too. My illness is a result of living in a fallen, broken world, not because God has rejected me. For this I am deeply thankful.
Oct 15, 2012
So this is my public declaration: From now on I am letting the hot air out of my inflated pride, stepping back and taking a deep breath. I can now say "I can't do it" and be OK with it... most of the time. I am not a power house of a woman, but as I let this go (not that I ever was), I am comforted by the fact that I can hold my head up in the mirror and smile. I am still growing and learning as a person and God has not given up on me. There is a new world of possabilities available, even as my physical world slowly shrinks. It is never too late to learn new things and I can have fun trying. I am learning strength of character and I am not rolling over and dying, I'm just doing things differently.